I realize 2 things..
1. My pajama pants are a XL!
2. I can actually sit on the couch indian-style with my laptop in my lap
without my belly pushing it off my lap or better yet without my belly sitting on the laptop!
January 06, 2011
NSV - Cupcake jammies
As i sit here reading blogs in my cupcake pajama pants
I realize 2 things..
1. My pajama pants are a XL!
2. I can actually sit on the couch indian-style with my laptop in my lap
without my belly pushing it off my lap or better yet without my belly sitting on the laptop!
This makes me a happy girl =D
I realize 2 things..
1. My pajama pants are a XL!
2. I can actually sit on the couch indian-style with my laptop in my lap
without my belly pushing it off my lap or better yet without my belly sitting on the laptop!
January 05, 2011
ER + crazies = entertainment
So there I was in bed getting ready to go to sleep.. drinking a protein shake while im browsing the internet.
I started getting stomach pains and thought, "ugh okay enough of this shake"...maybe I put too much peanut butter or something in it and it was giving me heartburn.
All of a sudden im in serious pain..flopping around in my bed, thinking i am about to die. Dramatic yes?
I start feeling weak and faint..so-much-pain! The pain in my stomach and pains in my back lasts about 20 mins. Then they go away. I think i'm in the clear. I start to lay down to goto sleep, but oh no, it happens again! Severe abdominal pain...i get up and try to walk around hoping that maybe it'll go away. At this point I have no idea what is going on..but this is exactly what happened 3 weeks ago. I go into the bathroom, bent over the sink, feeling oh so weak. Here...it...comes... The vomit.
Now i've been on liquids all day so there isn't much food coming up, actually like nothing at all but a wholeee lot of liquid.
My boyfriend is preparing himself to take me to the hospital. Since this is the 3rd time this has happened in 3 weeks I agree to go right away. After the hospital did all the blood work & I had a ultrasound to check my gallbladder and pancreas. I am wheeled back to my room. The ER doctor comes in to inform me that I have gallstones. I know nothing about this so I ask him how did I get them, he gives me some bullshit answer. He doesn't know, it could be many different reasons. I have seen him 3 times and he seems to never know anything. Crazy huh?
So needless to say i am going to have to have my gallbladder removed. I am going to my bariatric doctor tomorrow and i'm going to find out if my surgeon can do this and get some other info. But i remember doing alot of research before I had my lapband surgery and read alot about people having their gallbladders removed after surgery. So is this common with weight-loss surgery? When i asked my doctor about it back when i met with him for my consultation he said just because i have weight-loss surgery doesnt necessarily mean i'll have to have it removed.
So there you have it, I am infected with gallstones. yay! ugh.. so lame if you ask me. These "attacks" are so damn painful. And the worse part is, I dont know when ill have one of these "attacks".
On a good note, the ER was packed with crazies last night so at least I had some good entertainment during all the waiting.
A crazy women running out of the ER screaming the doctor is a nazi. She's telling the police officer she has a mob hit out for her but that she wants to become a cop. But she claims to be on drugs but she is all there mentally & the doctor is a nazi because he wants to baker-act her.
Absolute craziness. but pure entertainment.
So lets see what happens tomorrow at the doctors. Wish me well ^.^
I started getting stomach pains and thought, "ugh okay enough of this shake"...maybe I put too much peanut butter or something in it and it was giving me heartburn.
All of a sudden im in serious pain..flopping around in my bed, thinking i am about to die. Dramatic yes?
I start feeling weak and faint..so-much-pain! The pain in my stomach and pains in my back lasts about 20 mins. Then they go away. I think i'm in the clear. I start to lay down to goto sleep, but oh no, it happens again! Severe abdominal pain...i get up and try to walk around hoping that maybe it'll go away. At this point I have no idea what is going on..but this is exactly what happened 3 weeks ago. I go into the bathroom, bent over the sink, feeling oh so weak. Here...it...comes... The vomit.
Now i've been on liquids all day so there isn't much food coming up, actually like nothing at all but a wholeee lot of liquid.
My boyfriend is preparing himself to take me to the hospital. Since this is the 3rd time this has happened in 3 weeks I agree to go right away. After the hospital did all the blood work & I had a ultrasound to check my gallbladder and pancreas. I am wheeled back to my room. The ER doctor comes in to inform me that I have gallstones. I know nothing about this so I ask him how did I get them, he gives me some bullshit answer. He doesn't know, it could be many different reasons. I have seen him 3 times and he seems to never know anything. Crazy huh?
So needless to say i am going to have to have my gallbladder removed. I am going to my bariatric doctor tomorrow and i'm going to find out if my surgeon can do this and get some other info. But i remember doing alot of research before I had my lapband surgery and read alot about people having their gallbladders removed after surgery. So is this common with weight-loss surgery? When i asked my doctor about it back when i met with him for my consultation he said just because i have weight-loss surgery doesnt necessarily mean i'll have to have it removed.
So there you have it, I am infected with gallstones. yay! ugh.. so lame if you ask me. These "attacks" are so damn painful. And the worse part is, I dont know when ill have one of these "attacks".
On a good note, the ER was packed with crazies last night so at least I had some good entertainment during all the waiting.
A crazy women running out of the ER screaming the doctor is a nazi. She's telling the police officer she has a mob hit out for her but that she wants to become a cop. But she claims to be on drugs but she is all there mentally & the doctor is a nazi because he wants to baker-act her.
Absolute craziness. but pure entertainment.
So lets see what happens tomorrow at the doctors. Wish me well ^.^
January 03, 2011
Totally Neglected
Ok.. So I know I have been a really bad blogger. But i promise you I am alive! I just have totally neglected my blog.
I usually am a good multi-tasker but lately I haven't been able to handle life, losing weight & all the keeping up with blogs..So I apologize.
So let me recap. I had Lap-Band surgery on May 10, 2010. My starting weight was 329. Currently I am at my all time low, 256. Totaling 73lbs lost. I have been stuck in the 250's for about a month now. I have been bouncing around 260-257. Today at my weigh-in finally it moved and I guess i'll take that 1 pound loss. Since the holidays, I have lost focus. I have lost motivation. I have lost my drive.
Last night I kind-of hand a mini-meltdown. I feel like I have failed myself. I feel like I can't do this. I cannot get back on track and lose the weight I want to lose. I cried for a bit. But like Amy W. would say, I pulled up my big girl panties and told myself I just have to go back to the basics and start again. So today, I have done just that. I have done liquids all day to try and "cleanse" if you will, myself of all the toxic food & beverages I have been indulging in. I will get back to the gym and start hitting cardio again. I will do this and I will make my goal. My goal to lose 100lbs by May 10,2011..my 1 year bandiversary. By god, I WILL DO IT!
This Wednesday i am going in to see my doctor and hopefully will be getting a fill. That'll help.. I have restriction now but I need just a weee bit more. Also about 3 weeks ago I went into the hospital because I had severe upper abdominal pain that was going through to my back. I thought maybe it was just gas so I popped a tums but it didn't help.
I was in bed, in the fetal position, moaning, hoping it would just go away. But of course it got worse, I started getting nauseous..and I even started vomiting. So naturally i started to panic. My boyfriend who is online looking up my symptoms which at this point could be anything, says we need to go to the hospital. UGH. Do I really have to go?! I hate hospitals. Plus I always think, what if it's nothing? What if it's just a stomach-ache? I dont want to look like an idiot.
But after vomiting what felt like my brains out, i agreed to go. They took a lot of blood work, sent me in for a CAT scan to check my lap-band then sent me back to my bed.
After about an hour the ER doctor came back in & said my organs & band look fine. GOSH, what a relief. They don't know what happened. I was sent home with some pain meds which i did not need and some pepcid like stuff. After getting some much needed sleep, I felt fine. Weird huh?
Now last week, I have been getting sharp pains under my biggest scar, where the port is. It comes and goes and isnt terrible. So again I am freaked out, hoping everything with my band is fine. I am able to hold down everything, which my doctor says if nothing stays down then it's time to worry, so far thats not a problem. So today I scheduled an appointment to get it checked out. Has anyone experienced anything like this?
I will let you know how it all goes. Hopefully I still have followers...I know I have neglected my blog but please forgive me. I have seemed to lost my mind somewhere.
Thank you all you have left me comments in the past and who have stuck around. I really need the support. My support system at home, my friends and family have faded into the dark. So right now I feel like I dont have much of a support system. Which by the way, I still am going to my support groups. But I always feel so "out of place", awkward, or something there..I haven't quite figured it out. Maybe it's just me, i have been a HOT MESS lately.
Until next time.. hugs & eskimo kisses.
I usually am a good multi-tasker but lately I haven't been able to handle life, losing weight & all the keeping up with blogs..So I apologize.
So let me recap. I had Lap-Band surgery on May 10, 2010. My starting weight was 329. Currently I am at my all time low, 256. Totaling 73lbs lost. I have been stuck in the 250's for about a month now. I have been bouncing around 260-257. Today at my weigh-in finally it moved and I guess i'll take that 1 pound loss. Since the holidays, I have lost focus. I have lost motivation. I have lost my drive.
Last night I kind-of hand a mini-meltdown. I feel like I have failed myself. I feel like I can't do this. I cannot get back on track and lose the weight I want to lose. I cried for a bit. But like Amy W. would say, I pulled up my big girl panties and told myself I just have to go back to the basics and start again. So today, I have done just that. I have done liquids all day to try and "cleanse" if you will, myself of all the toxic food & beverages I have been indulging in. I will get back to the gym and start hitting cardio again. I will do this and I will make my goal. My goal to lose 100lbs by May 10,2011..my 1 year bandiversary. By god, I WILL DO IT!
This Wednesday i am going in to see my doctor and hopefully will be getting a fill. That'll help.. I have restriction now but I need just a weee bit more. Also about 3 weeks ago I went into the hospital because I had severe upper abdominal pain that was going through to my back. I thought maybe it was just gas so I popped a tums but it didn't help.
I was in bed, in the fetal position, moaning, hoping it would just go away. But of course it got worse, I started getting nauseous..and I even started vomiting. So naturally i started to panic. My boyfriend who is online looking up my symptoms which at this point could be anything, says we need to go to the hospital. UGH. Do I really have to go?! I hate hospitals. Plus I always think, what if it's nothing? What if it's just a stomach-ache? I dont want to look like an idiot.
But after vomiting what felt like my brains out, i agreed to go. They took a lot of blood work, sent me in for a CAT scan to check my lap-band then sent me back to my bed.
After about an hour the ER doctor came back in & said my organs & band look fine. GOSH, what a relief. They don't know what happened. I was sent home with some pain meds which i did not need and some pepcid like stuff. After getting some much needed sleep, I felt fine. Weird huh?
Now last week, I have been getting sharp pains under my biggest scar, where the port is. It comes and goes and isnt terrible. So again I am freaked out, hoping everything with my band is fine. I am able to hold down everything, which my doctor says if nothing stays down then it's time to worry, so far thats not a problem. So today I scheduled an appointment to get it checked out. Has anyone experienced anything like this?
I will let you know how it all goes. Hopefully I still have followers...I know I have neglected my blog but please forgive me. I have seemed to lost my mind somewhere.
Thank you all you have left me comments in the past and who have stuck around. I really need the support. My support system at home, my friends and family have faded into the dark. So right now I feel like I dont have much of a support system. Which by the way, I still am going to my support groups. But I always feel so "out of place", awkward, or something there..I haven't quite figured it out. Maybe it's just me, i have been a HOT MESS lately.
Until next time.. hugs & eskimo kisses.
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